Thursday, October 20, 2011

Hmmm....failure?

So I think this week has been a bit of a bust on the whole "change my lifestyle" road.  One of the good points for the week--I didn't eat out at all.  This helps my budget and my calorie intake.  So score one for me.  On the downside while I've discovered a website with really great lite recipes, I still need to work on portion control.  After working from 5am-8pm I find myself coming home eating three servings of what should be a healthy one serving.  Still better than eating out.  I also didn't make it to the gym this week.  Even on the days when I got done early, I was so tired I just came straight home.  Home is like quicksand.  Once I get here, I rarely get out.  It doesn't matter if it's going to the gym or the grocery store.  I don't want to leave.  Overall, not the week I was hoping for, but I've got room for improvement.  Goals for next week: don't eat out and make it to the gym three times.  Good goal. 

I'm working hard to change the way I think.  Before, if I was dieting and ate something I wasn't supposed to I'd say "the whole day is a loss" and then go crazy.  I expected to immediately be perfect.  Perfect at the diet and perfect at the exercise plan.  Some of my OCD tendencies from work?  The problem with this being that when I fail at something, I obsess, beat myself up about it, and emotionally eat.  Uh, can we say vicious cycle?  You'd think since I have insight it would be easy to stop...not so much. 

Let's hope insight keeps me on a good path next week.

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